I see people doing crazy, stupid things every single day and I’m left wondering why? Financially, I see people driving across town to save 2 cents a gallon on gas or to get an item that’s on sale for 10 cents off, spending more in their time and gas than the savings would provide. Non-financially, I see people using others for their own gain. Lying, cheating and stealing their way through life and not caring about the carnage they leave in their wake. What is rational about destroying the lives of others by emotionally abusing them? I haven’t found the answer but have suffered the abuse from several people recently. What is rational about putting your own selfish needs above the needs of those you care about most?

This rant is meant as therapy for myself and really serves no purpose to you, the reader, at all. If you know the answer to why people are irrational beings, please share your theory. But in the meantime I have come to the conclusion that I can’t live with my life and I can’t live without it either.

“A Kiss”

I wanna get kissed, kissed, kissed
I wanna get kissed, kissed, kissed
I wanna get kissed, kissed, kissed
I wanna get kissed, kissed, kissed

[Royce da 5'9"]
Nickel Nina nigga Twitter beefing, first rapper that shot a fan
Gucci’s my absolute state of mind, like Waka’s man
Chopper’s brand, getting head in the car park, new Gallardo
This bitch sucking my dick today, call it yesterday’s news tomorrow
Stretch a nigga out, I’m the new Tae-bo ’bout to cross over, I’m the new Ivo
‘Bout to saves a couple of these bitches, that’s right, I’m the new Bible
You? You five-O, me? I’m all grounded to punishments
But I’m too fly though, y’all niggas be winin’, I should call you Moscato

[Eminem]
Look down at the floorboard
It looks like someone left a pair of stiletto shoes in my Tahoe
Never know what type of a ho inside of my ride I may let
Last night at the 5 a.m., and she ain’t even recover from last Friday yet
Hoes all over the ride like it’s an ice cream truck, I can see why they fret
I already ran over two hoes and I ain’t get out the fucking drive way yet
Soon as I open the door, you try to resist, what for? Get in girl, don’t push
Shorty you’re, fightin’ an unwinnable war, it’s useless as, tits on a boy,
Little tits on a whore
Got a mack and it’s screaming like little kids throwing fits on the floor
Get in the whip but you ain’t turning, a frog into a prince, what you tryna
Keep your hands on me for?

[Chorus]
I wanna get kissed, kissed, kissed
(No you don’t)
I wanna get kissed, kissed, kissed
(Not from me)
I wanna get kissed, kissed, kissed
(Not on the lips, are you crazy?)
I wanna get kissed, kissed, kissed
(Maybe the cheek but that’s all you gon’ get from me)

[Verse 2: Eminem]
Now you in my whip just long as you understand that I can’t be whipped
You say companionship, I say abandon ship, I’m a gigolo so you know
I’m always on the go, I ain’t got no time to slow down for no relationshit
Drop the P and add a T, yeah, you can get mad at me all you want
But I’m ghost before you can even say boo, hun let alone call me one
A one night stand is all he wants but a female fan, yeah, one like Stan
So by the one nightstand this bedroom has two lamps and only one nightstand
Get the hint? Ooh yeah boo, ew! I ain’t finna argue but why do you think
They call it boo? Yeah, cause the sound of it’s ‘posed to scare you

[Royce da 5'9"]
Oh ho, we can share you in the back of the McLaren
I don’t give a fuck what your name is, we gon’ call you Hi and Bye
Hope you bi in the mean time your name is Sharon
Slow the flow down so I can what? Tell you same face
I make when I’m shooting the gun’s the same face that I make when I fuck
From the back of my hand on your neck pressing your face against the sheets
It’s insane
You been changed, cause I’m outta this world girl I got that Milky Way dick vein
I’m at an all-time high with highness, I’m at an all-time fly with flyness
And this is exactly what they say when they bow to your highness, yeah

[Chorus]

[Royce da 5'9"]
Nickel Nina nigga Twitter beefing, first rapper that shot a fan
(Push a chick out the car while it’s moving like Waka’s man)
Her bottom’s dark, but her top is tan, her private parts
Got her on the pole like the opposite of her papa’s plan
(Come on stripper, let’s hit the strip 180 throw it in reverse
And drop the trance! I’m in the trance, now look at this bitch dance)
Looking at this tramp, like what you wearing girl, quit playing
(Yeah bitch and them scrach and sniff pants? Well let me scratch ‘em)
Let me sniff, yeah What? Did I say that?
I’m on lean like styrofoam cups and kickstands

[Eminem]
Middle finger stuck on fuck, stiff hands
But girl you got a butt like no if ands
So yea what the hell, maybe, oh hell, Shady, he’ll tell it like it is
So tell Katy Perry he’s on the tail, he’s tailgating still bating
These bells are my maiden call and I’m here, bell’s raiding and tell Lady
Gaga, she can quit her job at the post office, she’s still a male lady
Wouldn’t fuck her with her dick you heard, the verdict
Seein’ he’s allergic to divas, and take meat cleavers to ‘em
Him don’t give a damn about Beaver do him?
What a demon, a behemoth, evil just seems to be seething through him

[Royce da 5'9"]
I like the little strip tease you doing this evening, you and me gon’ find
Three more chickadees and have a Minaj like Nicki
You hot like a Dickie outfit in Texas without shit under it, sweating
Suck my dick, both gets to steppin’ to my logic

[Eminem]
My God trick, my dick is hard, thick as a yardstick
What we gonna do? Ride around ’til we’re carsick
Then I’m gonna put this shit in park like dog shit
And you can blow me in the dark in the parking lot
Out of the trailer park by the garbage
What you waiting on? Me to roll up the carpet?
The condoms are in the glove compartment, let’s start it
Think I’m joking? What, am I sitting here
Tryna make fake farts with my armpits?
Tryna get you to spit pot through your nose?
Am I here to amuse you? Stop it

[Royce da 5'9"]
I’m in your pocket outside of a church
The other hand is at the bottom of your purse
You giving me head in a boxing stance
My dick’s so big you could drop it in dirt
I’m not your man, we’re sparring partners
There’s five things you are in charge of, that’s
Sucking a dick, sucking a dick, sucking a dick
Sucking a dick, sucking a dick

[Eminem]
If you ain’t sucking a dick, why you sitting there
With puckered lips? Oh that’s collagen, mothafucking bitch
What you mean how’d you, get suckered into this
You gon’ jump into my truck and then try to get truculent?
(You should be suffering, you should be cooking
You should be buckling your seatbelt with oven mitts)
Excuse me while I’m making an ass of myself
But it’s only cause I just wanna get

[Chorus]

Where is the bottom?

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Throughout life people come and go, good things begin and end. While struggling to grasp a meaning for these things I usually come up empty. As an Atheist it is very irritating to be told in response to this struggle that it is god’s will or that he has a plan. That just doesn’t cut it and proves well enough to me that a worshiped deity was created to make people feel better when nothing else does. Life isn’t meant to make sense, we get one shot at it and if you fuck up along the way there’s no reset button. You just have to live with the results and move on.

It’s that moving on part that gets me hung up. Letting go of something that became such a large part of my life seems impossible… almost like having to physically excise a cancerous growth from my body without anesthetic. The pain is intense and the scar left behind is a constant reminder of the past.

In my effort to search of reasoning I came across the following quote:

“When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.” – Helen Keller

This really does make a lot of sense and helped me come to the realization that focusing on the past will surely ruin my future as it passes me by.

In other words – Grab life by the balls.

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I begin this semester as a Junior, by one credit, and hope to graduate with a dual major in Business Economics and Finance by 2012.

Home sales are up, economic growth is up, jobs are still being lost (albeit at a slower pace) and more Americans saving rather than spending is what will keep the downturn/recession stretching into 2010. Much of the increase in home sales could be attributed to the government stimulus expiring and buyers rushing to make their purchase to claim the $8,000 tax credit. Employers continue to belt tighten in anticipation of further economic difficulty and in turn are essentially compounding the problem by supressing payroll numbers to save costs.

In 2009 I earned most of my income working in another state because of the lack of jobs in my own. At the same time I have seen my college tuition rise at unprecendented rates making it increasingly difficult to gain the degree needed to work in my desired profession. At what point does it not make economic sense for me to invest in a college degree? That point is fast approaching.

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While Yahoo and WSJ were the only ones to publicly say that the web traffic generated by Tiger will substantially increase ad revenue for the quarter, it will undoubtedly help out many other online news agencies as well such as, MSN.com, CNN.com, Google.com and others. Could this create a “Tiger Effect” that could boost results for these companies in the fourth quarter of 2009? I think it just might and if so this could be a good time to enter into long positions in these companies as the market has taken a bit of a beating the last few sessions and pricing is a bit more attractive.

On a side note, Tiger lost his first endorsement – although Gatorade claims it was already planning to phase out the product, their timing is quite a coincidence.